I haven’t felt this gloomy in a couple of years.

I went to the gym early in the morning, but I woke up with a fucked up feeling in my gut. Like when something horrible is going to happen. Lately Ive been feeling sad, lonely, in a twisted sort of way. I feel like baby is going to leave me, turns out it’s me debating whether to leave him. I just feel under so much pressure. so much stress. I can’t stop crying. I want to be free from this mess, the fights, the fucked up relationship not just ours, the people who don’t approve

but i can’t

i love him

he’s amazing, he makes me happy, he cares about my feelings.